Sorry for such a lag in between posts lately - week before last I was at a 3-day seminar and last week I got sick on Tuesday and this thing is still dragging at me. I haven't been this sick for this long since before I got cancer, and I really do think it's because I've been getting acupuncture so regularly for so long now. But as of 2 months ago, when my acupuncturist moved out of state, I haven't been getting treatments. So, instead I got sick. :-( Bad trade off in my opinion.
The seminar I went to was really good, and very different. It was called 12 Months to Six Figures, and showed entrepreneurs & solopreneurs how to not waste time making common mistakes in starting your own business. It was full of really great information, and not the stuff one might expect. There were a lot of tools I can use right now in moving my consulting business forward, getting it up and running. Good stuff.
I must admit I am feeling really overwhelmed with all that I feel I need to do. I feel this constant pressure to get my business up and running, to make a sustainable income before this time next year. A lot of that pressure comes from fear - fear of running out of money before I can support myself, having nowhere to turn and finding myself in an uncomfortable place. And that fear is keeping me from really being present and just enjoying this time, these moments. Somewhere inside of me I KNOW it's all going to be ok, I have no reason to believe or think otherwise. I'm almost 52 years old, have survived and thrived through a lot of shit, a LOT of shit - And I've always been ok, sometimes better than ok. I want to change things, have fun again and not always be so serious-minded, so fearful and pressured. The only person making me feel that way is me, I'm the only one that can change it. So I will.
Still feeling under the weather with this sinus infection/virus whatever it is. Went to Dress for Success this morning, and got through one hour before I broke out in a cold sweat, felt weak & shaky and had to come home. Oh well, that's still more than I felt like doing yesterday, so it's progress.
Better get back to work! Best to all of you
Allita
My journey into a healthier and more passion-filled life after cancer, menopause & alcoholism.
Metamorphosis
Welcome!
I started this blog in 2010 as I began the process of figuring out how to have a more passion-filled life, leaving my corporate job in search of something more fulfilling. It felt like a giant push on my life's restart button and I wanted to share my journey. The road on that journey has taken a few unforeseen twists and turns, first colon cancer then recovering from alcoholism. The journey continues, I hope you'll join me from time to time as I share my travels to that passion-filled life that still calls to me.
Wednesday, September 17, 2014
Monday, September 1, 2014
Labor Day
Happy Labor Day peeps. Another one of those holidays we all love to celebrate but know little/nothing about, or seem to care. So many people sacrificed so much for all these holidays we enjoy, and very few people acknowledge those sacrifices, makes me sad.
It has been a very busy, productive week and will be again this next week. I feel like I'm getting back into the fullness of life, and it doesn't make me feel overwhelmed like it did not long ago. I don't have that feeling of needing to psych myself up, or prepare, to be busy and have a lot going on in my day or week. I think that's due to a lot of things - 20 months of sobriety, feeling better physically, having some good solid help in finding my place in life again and getting my hormones more in balance again.
On that last note, I'm so excited to report that I seem to be getting my menopausal symptoms (hot flashes, night sweats, absent libido, mood swings, poor sleep) under control with my essential oil products. What a wild ride this has been!! They removed my ovaries in my first cancer surgery, April 2011, then chemotherapy comes along and makes menopausal symptoms a living hell. I finally get things under control in Spring '12 with compounded, bio-identical hormones and then my physician passes away. I switch practices, everything gets re-adjusted (it was like starting all over again, kind of frustrating) and fine tuned, and while bliss had returned, I realized I was spending a fortune on that stuff. And all along my goal had been to achieve balance and harmony in my body with the essential oil products, so in May/June of this year I quit taking my prescribed hormones and started tinkering with the oils. It's taken a while to get balance again, but I can feel it coming back. No hot flashes at all yesterday or yet today, no sweating last night, sleeping well and even beginning to feel my libido returning, which goes a long way towards a feeling of well-being with me.
This week I've got my Storytelling workshop, and then a 3-day seminar titled "12 Months to Six Figures" that I'm really excited about! I've extended my work with my life coach Kami for another 9 weeks and have started working with a web designer to get a new website up and running. My virtual assistant is working on a newsletter that will be going out the first week in November, and the Feminine Rising virtual retreat has been cancelled for September (thank God) and will start in October, giving me more time to pull my workshop together. Things are falling into place, and I'm full of gratitude and a knowing that this will continue as long as I continue doing what's in front of me and staying authentic to who I am. What a ride!!!
Have a fabulous week!
It has been a very busy, productive week and will be again this next week. I feel like I'm getting back into the fullness of life, and it doesn't make me feel overwhelmed like it did not long ago. I don't have that feeling of needing to psych myself up, or prepare, to be busy and have a lot going on in my day or week. I think that's due to a lot of things - 20 months of sobriety, feeling better physically, having some good solid help in finding my place in life again and getting my hormones more in balance again.
On that last note, I'm so excited to report that I seem to be getting my menopausal symptoms (hot flashes, night sweats, absent libido, mood swings, poor sleep) under control with my essential oil products. What a wild ride this has been!! They removed my ovaries in my first cancer surgery, April 2011, then chemotherapy comes along and makes menopausal symptoms a living hell. I finally get things under control in Spring '12 with compounded, bio-identical hormones and then my physician passes away. I switch practices, everything gets re-adjusted (it was like starting all over again, kind of frustrating) and fine tuned, and while bliss had returned, I realized I was spending a fortune on that stuff. And all along my goal had been to achieve balance and harmony in my body with the essential oil products, so in May/June of this year I quit taking my prescribed hormones and started tinkering with the oils. It's taken a while to get balance again, but I can feel it coming back. No hot flashes at all yesterday or yet today, no sweating last night, sleeping well and even beginning to feel my libido returning, which goes a long way towards a feeling of well-being with me.
This week I've got my Storytelling workshop, and then a 3-day seminar titled "12 Months to Six Figures" that I'm really excited about! I've extended my work with my life coach Kami for another 9 weeks and have started working with a web designer to get a new website up and running. My virtual assistant is working on a newsletter that will be going out the first week in November, and the Feminine Rising virtual retreat has been cancelled for September (thank God) and will start in October, giving me more time to pull my workshop together. Things are falling into place, and I'm full of gratitude and a knowing that this will continue as long as I continue doing what's in front of me and staying authentic to who I am. What a ride!!!
Have a fabulous week!
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