I haven't been posting here since my new Ellaquent Coaching website went live, as I have a blog on that site too. But, as one of my dear friends said, there may still be things I want to blog about that aren't relevant to my business. This feels like one of those things that I really just wanted to share about.
What has been really big for me lately is healing some of my childhood hurts, and as those parts of me have finally gotten my love and attention, I am feeling a lot of things shift in my life. My need for huge amounts of clothing, shoes, jewelry, beauty items and other "stuff" in my house has been lifting, slowly and steadily, for the last several weeks. Recently, I pulled about 80% of my closet out, it's hanging in the garage, and my deal is that if I don't go looking for any of that in the next month, I'm going to let it all go. It's been several weeks, and I can't even describe how good it feels to have less hanging in my closet. Less to weed through when I get dressed, less to choose from, less to stress over. Stress over?? Yes, stress over. I've known for a long time that I simply have.too.much - but at the same time as it felt excessive, it also was never enough and I needed more, always more. Hmmmmm, maybe I've been trying to numb something. :-)
So now, I am ready to let go of so many other things. Nik naks, wall hangings that I've had for years or that were my mothers, furniture that was in my childhood home that I've been holding onto for decades now even though it isn't my style at all and is far from practical, fake plants (it's time for the real thing), books that were my mothers and anything else that no longer serves me. These are just "things", which for a long time felt comforting. Now it feels limiting, and it keeps me from letting go of the past and being fully present.
Things are shifting, I am slowly letting go and truly, finally, moving on. It's hard, it hurts, but I know I am ready - it's time. I feel God gently and lovingly pushing me, reminding me that I am safe and it is going to be ok. This feels so huge, and so powerful, and I can't wait to see what will come from this creation of FLOW in my life.
Love,
Allita
Metamorphosis
