Metamorphosis

Metamorphosis

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I started this blog in 2010 as I began the process of figuring out how to have a more passion-filled life, leaving my corporate job in search of something more fulfilling. It felt like a giant push on my life's restart button and I wanted to share my journey. The road on that journey has taken a few unforeseen twists and turns, first colon cancer then recovering from alcoholism. The journey continues, I hope you'll join me from time to time as I share my travels to that passion-filled life that still calls to me.



Monday, June 9, 2014

I Feel So Alone

This is a poem I wrote a couple of years ago, post-cancer but before sobriety.  I was obviously feeling so lost, but somehow also knowing that a bigger purpose was unfolding.  I'm finding it still resonates to some degree with where I am today, although I don't feel nearly as lost, "aimless and adrift".


I Feel So Alone

I feel so alone, but am I?
Spinning, drowning, aimless and adrift 
No sense of purpose, but is that the gift?

Who I once was, is she no longer here?
Can I accept what is now, walk through this fear?

At times my life feels empty,
And so riddled with doubt 
This new me…
I don't know, what is she all about?

All alone in my head
My soul cries out for reasons
All the questions, never ending,
Like what my purpose for being is. 

Faith, I have plenty
A bigger plan I know is in store 
I don't regret what's been asked,
But must there always be more? 

A purpose and direction are what I now seek, 
A new compass, a focus, 
To feel my heart wildly beat

My soul, my spirit,
Am I them, are they me?


I feel so alone, but am I...truly?

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